I Love Sleep

I really love sleep. As a matter of fact, I am in bed right now as I type this. It is 8:15 on a rainy Monday night. As much as I love my sleep, it can become a problem. It can be a problem because I have depression. Depression also loves sleep. Depression would like …

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I’m Going to Therapy

Yes, therapy. Some of you probably thought I may have already been going. Nope. I have been so concerned with the others in my life who need help, I have been neglecting someone important. Me. I finally bit the bullet and contacted a therapist this week. I have my first appointment next week, and I’m …

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Scrambled Eggs

I don’t really know how to write. Most of the time I just sit and type, hoping that what is coming out of my brain makes sense. Let’s face it, a mentally ill brain is a lot like scrambled eggs. A bunch of thoughts all shaken up and then plopped down on a plate, and …

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It’s Going…..

Not really sure how it's going, but it's going. It's been a roller coaster ride these past couple of months. I can report that my kiddo has found a psychologist that she is starting to work with, and that has taken a load off my shoulders. Her medication has been adjusted to a level that …

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Update and The New Kitten

Mr. Eggs Benedict It’s been a rough go this past little while. Some med adjustments for my daughter have happened, with one as recent as I sit and write this post. I can report that she is doing better than she was, but we are still in an uphill battle. We now have some recommendations …

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Sad Days

As I sit and type this, I worry. My daughter is not doing well. It’s been almost 2 weeks since she has started to have suicidal thoughts. She left her job because of it, before she saw a physician, because it was unbearable. We were not able to get her an appointment right away, and …

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Post Covid, Vacation, and other Random Things

Well, let me tell you one thing. Covid wasn’t great. Sickest I’ve been in a while. My taste and smell are coming back, as well as my energy. I am currently on vacation, so it was great to have the time off to get better. By the time week one was done I was starting …

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Roll the Dice

Each day I wake up and roll the dice. These aren’t your regular dice. These are special mental illness dice. Sometimes I roll a good day. These days I don’t doubt myself, and I am not exhausted from fighting my brain. Sometimes I roll a bad day, and I want to crawl back into bed. …

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Feels Like a Circle

Mental illness has seasons, well, mine does at least. It’s like a circle. I’m in the middle, watching the seasons go by. I can’t touch the outer ring because I am stuck in place. I can’t make the circle bigger, or break the ring. I just sit, and watch it. The seasons that are out …

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Shedding Those Insecurities

It’s not easy. I am having a hard time letting go of the insecurities that keep holding me back. They’re like a warm blanket I am afraid to take off in the winter. Knowing I will be cold and vulnerable after the cover comes off. It’s making me feel restless, like I want to jump …

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