I Never Thought It Would Be This Way

I never thought that my smile would hide the demons inside of me. That I would fight daily to keep myself from falling apart. That I could be so tired. That my body could hurt without injury. That my darkest days would be when I was raising a daughter. I remember when I finally told …

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I Will Not Be Silent

I had lunch with a good friend today, the other co-founder of Road Warriors, Shannon (check out our website here: https://battlewithin.ca/). During our conversation we talked about the stigma still associated around mental health, and speaking out about our struggles. It still makes people uncomfortable. They don’t know what to say, or how to act …

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Accepting Shit

So, I recently took a little break from all of my social media for a couple of weeks so I could focus on some things that needed my attention. It was well worth it, and I think I will do it a little more often. While I was off, I started to evaluate my priorities, …

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Absent, to be Present

I’m on a bit of a social media break (which will be ironic, because I’ll be posting this on social media, lol) so I can be present and show up in my life. I’ve been absent for quite some time. Detached from things since COVID-19 reared it’s ugly head. Been living in fight or flight …

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Looking Back, and Moving Forward…Again

My first race I ran my first race (a 10k) 3 weeks before I was diagnosed with depression. I was numb. I ran out of pure spite. I had no idea I was on the road to a breakdown. I thought this was just a finish line. I never thought running would be the thing …

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I Thought I Was Doing Good

I have been eating better. I have been drinking more water. I am getting ready to start some consistent running and yoga on June 1st. What I didn’t really pay attention to during this time was my underlying fatigue. That not so good depression sleep. It’s the sleep that takes over. Sleeping in is every …

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Running, In The Time of COVID

Or.....not running? I have been struggling lately. I haven’t been running as much as I would like. Honestly, it’s been a while. I have some really bad anxiety when I go outside. If I do want to go for a run, it needs to be early in the morning so I am not around that …

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Is This The New Normal?

I guess I am getting used to this new normal. It’s still surreal, this world we are currently living in. I live for the sunny days. Even when I am having a bad day on a sunny day, it doesn’t seem so awful. Still thankful to be able to work from home. It keeps my …

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These Precious Illusions

It’s hard to keep smiling these days. I do my best to find something in each day that makes me happy, or gives me a smile. I am lucky to have my daughter living with me during this surreal time. We make each other laugh, and are there for each other when things are not …

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Voices in My Head

Pandemic + Mental Illness = War. It’s an inner war and I haven’t been rallying the troops like I should be. The enemy has been winning small battles these past couple of weeks. It’s time to sit down and rewrite my battle plan. Morale is in the toilet, so I need to pump up the …

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