I really love sleep. As a matter of fact, I am in bed right now as I type this. It is 8:15 on a rainy Monday night. As much as I love my sleep, it can become a problem. It can be a problem because I have depression. Depression also loves sleep. Depression would like …
What I am Learning in Therapy
I am stuck in a circle of flight and freeze. My exhaustion is valid. My energy is being spent in this circle. I need to readjust my nervous system. I have a lot of trauma to work through, and some vicarious trauma to take care of as well. It’s going to be a journey, and …
I’m Going to Therapy
Yes, therapy. Some of you probably thought I may have already been going. Nope. I have been so concerned with the others in my life who need help, I have been neglecting someone important. Me. I finally bit the bullet and contacted a therapist this week. I have my first appointment next week, and I’m …
Scrambled Eggs
I don’t really know how to write. Most of the time I just sit and type, hoping that what is coming out of my brain makes sense. Let’s face it, a mentally ill brain is a lot like scrambled eggs. A bunch of thoughts all shaken up and then plopped down on a plate, and …
It’s Going…..
Not really sure how it's going, but it's going. It's been a roller coaster ride these past couple of months. I can report that my kiddo has found a psychologist that she is starting to work with, and that has taken a load off my shoulders. Her medication has been adjusted to a level that …
Update and The New Kitten
Mr. Eggs Benedict It’s been a rough go this past little while. Some med adjustments for my daughter have happened, with one as recent as I sit and write this post. I can report that she is doing better than she was, but we are still in an uphill battle. We now have some recommendations …
Sad Days
As I sit and type this, I worry. My daughter is not doing well. It’s been almost 2 weeks since she has started to have suicidal thoughts. She left her job because of it, before she saw a physician, because it was unbearable. We were not able to get her an appointment right away, and …
Post Covid, Vacation, and other Random Things
Well, let me tell you one thing. Covid wasn’t great. Sickest I’ve been in a while. My taste and smell are coming back, as well as my energy. I am currently on vacation, so it was great to have the time off to get better. By the time week one was done I was starting …
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COVID
I learned on Sunday that I was exposed to Covid-19. I tested Monday Morning, negative. So, I went about my day. My throat was kind of dry as the day went on, but didn’t think much about it, as I find the office air dry some days. I woke up early Tuesday and I was …
Roll the Dice
Each day I wake up and roll the dice. These aren’t your regular dice. These are special mental illness dice. Sometimes I roll a good day. These days I don’t doubt myself, and I am not exhausted from fighting my brain. Sometimes I roll a bad day, and I want to crawl back into bed. …
Screaming Into the Void 