Update and The New Kitten

Mr. Eggs Benedict It’s been a rough go this past little while. Some med adjustments for my daughter have happened, with one as recent as I sit and write this post. I can report that she is doing better than she was, but we are still in an uphill battle. We now have some recommendations …

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Sad Days

As I sit and type this, I worry. My daughter is not doing well. It’s been almost 2 weeks since she has started to have suicidal thoughts. She left her job because of it, before she saw a physician, because it was unbearable. We were not able to get her an appointment right away, and …

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Post Covid, Vacation, and other Random Things

Well, let me tell you one thing. Covid wasn’t great. Sickest I’ve been in a while. My taste and smell are coming back, as well as my energy. I am currently on vacation, so it was great to have the time off to get better. By the time week one was done I was starting …

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Roll the Dice

Each day I wake up and roll the dice. These aren’t your regular dice. These are special mental illness dice. Sometimes I roll a good day. These days I don’t doubt myself, and I am not exhausted from fighting my brain. Sometimes I roll a bad day, and I want to crawl back into bed. …

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Feels Like a Circle

Mental illness has seasons, well, mine does at least. It’s like a circle. I’m in the middle, watching the seasons go by. I can’t touch the outer ring because I am stuck in place. I can’t make the circle bigger, or break the ring. I just sit, and watch it. The seasons that are out …

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Shedding Those Insecurities

It’s not easy. I am having a hard time letting go of the insecurities that keep holding me back. They’re like a warm blanket I am afraid to take off in the winter. Knowing I will be cold and vulnerable after the cover comes off. It’s making me feel restless, like I want to jump …

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Not Feeling It

Usually I am a Christmas Junkie. I usually love decorating and watching allllll the cheesy Hallmark Movies. It’s my kiddo that has a hard time with this season. This year, it’s me. I’m having a hard time. This past week has been rough. Today I just want to crawl back into bed and let the …

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And She Did It

It’s been a few weeks since my 10km race. It’s taken me that long to process this journey, one that I needed to go on to find my running mojo again. Running with Team Myles was an amazing experience. One I will never forget. I’ve made some new running friends, and I’ve even joined a …

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Fall Equals…Anxiety??

I love fall! So many great things about this season. The trees changing, the crisp air, and of course, Halloween! I am getting closer to my 10k race in November. Looking forward to running with all my peeps in Team Myles 💚 For some reason though, I am full of anxiety. Like over the top …

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Oh My God, Frig Off Already

Imposter Syndrome. It’s riding my ass hard today. I’m also restless and annoyed. These days are hard, because the inner conflict takes over and all I want to do is stay in bed and eat crap. Thankfully I had things to do that made me get out of bed: a Microsoft Teams meeting, laundry, and …

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