I have had to stop asking myself “What will today bring?” The past few months have had it’s bad, and it’s good. The world is still in a pandemic and my neighbours to the South are imploding. I am glad the big orange cheeto is on his way out the door, but holy moly guys. …
Category: mentalhealth
The Cold, The Covid Test, and My Anxiety
This week was a little stressful. I woke up on Monday morning with a chest cold and a cough. I took the online Covid assessment of my local health authority and was advised to get tested for Covid. I booked my test online and was lucky to get an appointment that morning, within 2 hours …
And For Now, I’m Okay
So, I am coming out of a depressive episode. Basically, I am telling my depression to go fuck itself right now. This is like a fog lifting, or a weight being taken off my shoulders. I feel more “normal”, more like myself. I don’t experience imposter syndrome. My self doubt takes a back seat. It …
I Never Thought It Would Be This Way
I never thought that my smile would hide the demons inside of me. That I would fight daily to keep myself from falling apart. That I could be so tired. That my body could hurt without injury. That my darkest days would be when I was raising a daughter. I remember when I finally told …
I Will Not Be Silent
I had lunch with a good friend today, the other co-founder of Road Warriors, Shannon (check out our website here: https://battlewithin.ca/). During our conversation we talked about the stigma still associated around mental health, and speaking out about our struggles. It still makes people uncomfortable. They don’t know what to say, or how to act …
Accepting Shit
So, I recently took a little break from all of my social media for a couple of weeks so I could focus on some things that needed my attention. It was well worth it, and I think I will do it a little more often. While I was off, I started to evaluate my priorities, …
Absent, to be Present
I’m on a bit of a social media break (which will be ironic, because I’ll be posting this on social media, lol) so I can be present and show up in my life. I’ve been absent for quite some time. Detached from things since COVID-19 reared it’s ugly head. Been living in fight or flight …
Looking Back, and Moving Forward…Again
My first race I ran my first race (a 10k) 3 weeks before I was diagnosed with depression. I was numb. I ran out of pure spite. I had no idea I was on the road to a breakdown. I thought this was just a finish line. I never thought running would be the thing …
I Thought I Was Doing Good
I have been eating better. I have been drinking more water. I am getting ready to start some consistent running and yoga on June 1st. What I didn’t really pay attention to during this time was my underlying fatigue. That not so good depression sleep. It’s the sleep that takes over. Sleeping in is every …
Running, In The Time of COVID
Or.....not running? I have been struggling lately. I haven’t been running as much as I would like. Honestly, it’s been a while. I have some really bad anxiety when I go outside. If I do want to go for a run, it needs to be early in the morning so I am not around that …
