I’m on a bit of a social media break (which will be ironic, because I’ll be posting this on social media, lol) so I can be present and show up in my life. I’ve been absent for quite some time. Detached from things since COVID-19 reared it’s ugly head. Been living in fight or flight …
Category: mentalhealth
Looking Back, and Moving Forward…Again
My first race I ran my first race (a 10k) 3 weeks before I was diagnosed with depression. I was numb. I ran out of pure spite. I had no idea I was on the road to a breakdown. I thought this was just a finish line. I never thought running would be the thing …
I Thought I Was Doing Good
I have been eating better. I have been drinking more water. I am getting ready to start some consistent running and yoga on June 1st. What I didn’t really pay attention to during this time was my underlying fatigue. That not so good depression sleep. It’s the sleep that takes over. Sleeping in is every …
Running, In The Time of COVID
Or.....not running? I have been struggling lately. I haven’t been running as much as I would like. Honestly, it’s been a while. I have some really bad anxiety when I go outside. If I do want to go for a run, it needs to be early in the morning so I am not around that …
Is This The New Normal?
I guess I am getting used to this new normal. It’s still surreal, this world we are currently living in. I live for the sunny days. Even when I am having a bad day on a sunny day, it doesn’t seem so awful. Still thankful to be able to work from home. It keeps my …
These Precious Illusions
It’s hard to keep smiling these days. I do my best to find something in each day that makes me happy, or gives me a smile. I am lucky to have my daughter living with me during this surreal time. We make each other laugh, and are there for each other when things are not …
I Don’t Know
I don’t know a lot right now. I don’t know how long COVID-19 will keep it’s grip on the Earth. I don’t know how long I will be working from home (but I am thankful I have the opportunity to do so). I don’t know how I am getting through each day without breaking down. …
I’m Scared to Death
Just back from Cuba. I am well rested and full of anxiety! On Monday, I am starting a new position. I will be the Manager of my group. To say I’m not scared would be a big fat lie. I’m scared to death. It’s not that I will be working with a whole new group …
Because I Need to be Reminded: Why I Run
If I had seen someone running (summer or winter) around 11 years ago I would have told you those people were nuts. Who would do that to themselves? I was a self proclaimed couch potato, and a single mom, working a stressful job. I hd been to the gym off and on, but it never …
I Will Always be Sick
Always. Be. Sick. I finally swallowed that, and it hurt. I will always have depression (and anxiety). It may not rule my day to day, but it is always there. It was a scary thing to say out loud to myself. Let's face it, mental illness is scary. Why would I want to admit that …
