Full of fatigue. Lacking motivation. Fighting my depression. Navigating this pandemic. I’m so done. Done with feeling like I can’t do anything about how I’m feeling. I go in circles. A time where I’m feeling good and think I have everything under some semblance of control. I can handle a lot of things I cannot …
Category: mentalhealth
Covid, Peri menopause, and Jeans
So, some of us have gained weight during Covid (all that home made bread and bagels). Some of us have gained weight thanks to the lovely stage of life called peri menopause. I fall mostly into the second category. My love for bread doesn’t help, mind you. This makes my struggle with mental illness all …
Self Love? How About Self Acceptance
I’ve read and heard enough about self love lately. I’m on another path right now. I’ve also overcome the thoughts that I am not good enough to be loved. I am not only good enough, but worthy. What has been important to me this past year has been self acceptance. Accepting not only who I …
Changes
“I’m going through changes”. Ozzy Osbourne This week I uncovered some of my lost soul. The part I lost through my toxic marriage. I found my love of learning, my love of self discovery, and my desire to move forward. I have started reaching out to the universe. I have decided that I WANT to …
I Just Don’t Know Anymore
I have had to stop asking myself “What will today bring?” The past few months have had it’s bad, and it’s good. The world is still in a pandemic and my neighbours to the South are imploding. I am glad the big orange cheeto is on his way out the door, but holy moly guys. …
The Cold, The Covid Test, and My Anxiety
This week was a little stressful. I woke up on Monday morning with a chest cold and a cough. I took the online Covid assessment of my local health authority and was advised to get tested for Covid. I booked my test online and was lucky to get an appointment that morning, within 2 hours …
And For Now, I’m Okay
So, I am coming out of a depressive episode. Basically, I am telling my depression to go fuck itself right now. This is like a fog lifting, or a weight being taken off my shoulders. I feel more “normal”, more like myself. I don’t experience imposter syndrome. My self doubt takes a back seat. It …
I Never Thought It Would Be This Way
I never thought that my smile would hide the demons inside of me. That I would fight daily to keep myself from falling apart. That I could be so tired. That my body could hurt without injury. That my darkest days would be when I was raising a daughter. I remember when I finally told …
I Will Not Be Silent
I had lunch with a good friend today, the other co-founder of Road Warriors, Shannon (check out our website here: https://battlewithin.ca/). During our conversation we talked about the stigma still associated around mental health, and speaking out about our struggles. It still makes people uncomfortable. They don’t know what to say, or how to act …
It’s Not a Personal Failure
One thing I have come to accept is that mental illness is NOT a personal failure. I have felt that way for years. That I had somehow caused it. That I was responsible for it “showing up”. I also put the blame on myself when my daughter was diagnosed. It must have been my fault. …
