Awake at 2am

It's now 3:32am as I type this and I am wide awake. One cat is legit right beside me purring in my face. The other just went from the chair to underneath my bed. This will be gross if I don't go back to sleep. I am going to blame this on my bladder. If …

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Let’s Get Running

Looking ahead to the next year as a whole isn't something that comes easy to me. Just typing this is making me itch with anxiety (for real, my arms are itchy). I have decided to start planning my races for next year. I will be running all as a Worth Living Run Ambassador to bring …

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I’m a Fainter

Last weekend I fainted while sitting in a pedicure chair. An ambulance was called. My daughter was a rockstar (which is good, because I now know she can navigate a situation like that without freaking). I was checked out by the paramedics, and then went to see a doctor who ordered some bloodwork. I had …

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Chewing The Skin Around My Nails

Yes. I chew the skin around my fingernails. It's a stress/anxiety solution to "getting rid" of my feelings. I will chew them, sometimes, until they bleed. Especially when my anxiety levels are high. My new meds have helped with the daily chewing. I am starting to slow my roll. I am now wearing fake nails …

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Why I Became a Worth Living Ambassador

I had been searching, over the past few years, for an organization that I could lend my voice to when it came to mental illness awareness. I had contemplated many, and given my voice to certain campaigns, but something was lacking for me.  The ups and downs with conversation about awareness started to wear me …

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Waiting to Come Out On The Other Side

I am into week 2 of the booster (Abilify) for my anti-depressants. It's been a bit of ride, but not necessarily a bad one. The first week: I was restless and I couldn't sit still. I am still a bit restless, bit that is starting to subside. I also found it hard to get to …

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A Booster for My Brain

Today was my six week check in with my doc to see where my anxiety was at. We sat down and talked about how things were, and how the additional methods I have been using to keep my anxiety under control have not been working like they have in the past. My depression has gotten …

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