Please, don't change. You don't need a "new you" for the New Year. Be unapologetically you. Every year. Do things FOR you, not because you "need to", or "have-to-because-this-person-said-I-am-not-my-best-self", but because you want to do it, for you. You are the Captain of your own ship. Everyone's ship, and course, are different. Be kind to …
Tag: Worth Living
Good Days, Bad Days
Sometimes it's good hour, bad hour. Good minute, bad minute. I've been alternating my good days and bad days lately. I don't know if it's the early darkness or just the way things are right now. On my bad days I do what I can. If it means missing out on something I had plans …
I’m Still Here
I'm still medicated. I'm still fighting. Things have been hectic lately. Work has been absolutely overwhelming. Life is all over thr place. I was out yesterday to do some Christmas shopping. This is the earliest I have started it. I am feeling pretty good about having it started. It has made it easier on my …
This is Not a Competition
Everyone who has a mental illness suffers. Everyone who has a mental illness has good days and bad. Some will have more bad than good. But one thing that really bothers me is how some people, when being open and honest about where they are in their journey, attract those who seem to think it …
Keeping it Real
This is Mental Illness Awareness Week, and I decided that every day, on my personal Facebook page, I would write something about my experience with mental illness. I did my "hey this is what I am doing" post on Sunday night. I did "hey here are my meds" on Monday. Today (Tuesday), well today was …
Body Image & Mental Illness
(This post is about MY experience/struggle with body image and depression/anxiety.) See this picture? I posted it last week on my Facebook page. I have a love hate relationship with this photo, because the thing I see first, is my back bulges from the racer back running bra I am wearing. At first, I didn't …
And I Ran
Last weekend was Maritime Race Weekend, and my birthday (wooohooo!). I had signed up for this race (the Tartan Twosome: one race Friday night, one race Saturday morning) when I was jacked up on endorphins from another race. I figured, what would be an awesome way to welcome 47! It has one of the best …
We’ve Got a New Drug
Well, the me of we doesn't. The V of we does. She is on a weaning off plan this week, with her new drug (Fetzima) to be started after that. She follows up with the doc in a month. This drug can be increased up to 120mg if need be. Fingers are crossed for this …
Following My Path
After unpacking some of my shit, it was time to forge a new path. (I am not done unpacking all my shit. Far from it.) I need to start following my own path. For years I have been following someone else's path, or the path that I thought was expected of me. I am still …
Unpacking My Shit: Plant Style
So one of the things that has come from the unpacking of the shit has been how uncomfortable my apartment has been feeling (you know, besides the messy depression mess that seems to never go away, bastard). I have plants in my temporary office space, and I realized just how much more comfortable it feels …
Screaming Into the Void 