We’re Doing Okay

Things are going well. My daughter's meds seem to be working. She is slowly beginning to come back into the outside world, and I am very grateful. At the end of this week, we are off to sun and sand for a much needed vacation. After this vacation it will be a slow return to …

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What I Wish You Knew

In my darkest (and not so darkest) hours there are things I cannot say. It's not because I physically can't. It's because I am afraid to. If they are spoken out loud they become real. If they stay inside they are only my demons to deal with. So, when I can't say what I need …

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Brains of a Feather

We've had a rough couple of months. My Buggie was just not feeling herself, no matter what we tried. She was struggling a lot, and had a hard time getting out of bed. She physically hurt, and had no motivation (she loves to clean, for real, and she has not had the urge to clean …

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Life as a Depression Ninja

Depression Ninja? Yes. I've talked about how great of an actress I am. 99% of the time, you would never know that I suffer from a mental illness. I'm good at hiding it, and it can take it's toll. Not only on me, but on those around me. That 1% of the time when I …

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Speaking in Public: Oh My Nerves

This year I have two speaking engagements. My first one is at the end of this month, at Podcamp Halifax (held at Dalhousie University) and the other in May at the Worth Living Mental Health Conference here in Halifax (at the Atlanica Hotel. I have spoken in public before, and was a bundle of anxiety. …

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Rearranging My Room, The Head Cold, and Why is My Cat Being an Asshole?

I decided (on Boxing Day) that I needed to rearrange my room. It is only the second time I've done this since living in this apartment because my room is an L shaped room. It stresses me out to rearrange it. I really wanted to move my stuff from one end to the other, but …

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As I Lay Me Down To Sleep

One thing that my medication doesn't shake: my want to sleep, ALL THE TIME. My depression likes sleep. I love sleep. This depression sleep is a whole different beast. It doesn't like it when I want to get up and do anything productive, like work or running. This sleep can be intoxicating to my brain. …

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