It’s not easy. I am having a hard time letting go of the insecurities that keep holding me back. They’re like a warm blanket I am afraid to take off in the winter. Knowing I will be cold and vulnerable after the cover comes off. It’s making me feel restless, like I want to jump …
Tag: mental illness
Not Feeling It
Usually I am a Christmas Junkie. I usually love decorating and watching allllll the cheesy Hallmark Movies. It’s my kiddo that has a hard time with this season. This year, it’s me. I’m having a hard time. This past week has been rough. Today I just want to crawl back into bed and let the …
And She Did It
It’s been a few weeks since my 10km race. It’s taken me that long to process this journey, one that I needed to go on to find my running mojo again. Running with Team Myles was an amazing experience. One I will never forget. I’ve made some new running friends, and I’ve even joined a …
Fall Equals…Anxiety??
I love fall! So many great things about this season. The trees changing, the crisp air, and of course, Halloween! I am getting closer to my 10k race in November. Looking forward to running with all my peeps in Team Myles 💚 For some reason though, I am full of anxiety. Like over the top …
Oh My God, Frig Off Already
Imposter Syndrome. It’s riding my ass hard today. I’m also restless and annoyed. These days are hard, because the inner conflict takes over and all I want to do is stay in bed and eat crap. Thankfully I had things to do that made me get out of bed: a Microsoft Teams meeting, laundry, and …
Team Myles Ambassador
I’m a Team Myles Ambassador for 2021! I am very excited for this opportunity, because I had fallen off of the consistency wagon when it came to running. My mental health was suffering as a result. When I saw the moment applications were open, I jumped on it, not knowing if it would be accepted. …
Running? Really?
I ran an actual “in person” race recently. It was a small event, with three different distances (4km, 6km, 8km). It was a lot of beach running. I did the 4km distance because who am I kidding, my running has been subpar lately. I knew in my inner being that the smallest distance would be …
Bend in the Road
Sometimes my depression veers off course. It surprises me by taking its foot off the gas. I start feeling not so tired, not so hopeless. Now is one of those times. I am not in bed so early. I can stay up and get things done. Although getting out of bed is still hard, I …
Weighted
I’ve gained weight. Gone up 4 sizes as a matter of fact. It’s happened over the past few years. As part of my journey to self acceptance, I’ve struggled with this extra weight on my body. Societal issues with body image has done a number on my head, and it hasn’t been easy accepting where …
So Done
Full of fatigue. Lacking motivation. Fighting my depression. Navigating this pandemic. I’m so done. Done with feeling like I can’t do anything about how I’m feeling. I go in circles. A time where I’m feeling good and think I have everything under some semblance of control. I can handle a lot of things I cannot …
Screaming Into the Void 