I Will Always be Sick

Always. Be. Sick. I finally swallowed that, and it hurt. I will always have depression (and anxiety). It may not rule my day to day, but it is always there. It was a scary thing to say out loud to myself. Let's face it, mental illness is scary. Why would I want to admit that …

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Dialing Into My Brain

Today, I had planned to wake up early and get to the gym. There was a spin class I wanted to go to and then do a 30 minute strength training sesh. I must have turned my alarm off in my sleep. I slept in. Then my brain went into overdrive. It was a little …

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Digging Deep

I am usually not a "word for my year" person per se. I have done it on occasion, to motivate myself and give some direction to my mindset. I have been sitting back and really doing some deep thinking these past couple of weeks. Then it hit me. That's my word. Deep. I made a …

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Good Days, Bad Days

Sometimes it's good hour, bad hour. Good minute, bad minute. I've been alternating my good days and bad days lately. I don't know if it's the early darkness or just the way things are right now. On my bad days I do what I can. If it means missing out on something I had plans …

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I’m Still Here

I'm still medicated. I'm still fighting. Things have been hectic lately. Work has been absolutely overwhelming. Life is all over thr place. I was out yesterday to do some Christmas shopping. This is the earliest I have started it. I am feeling pretty good about having it started. It has made it easier on my …

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This is Not a Competition

Everyone who has a mental illness suffers. Everyone who has a mental illness has good days and bad. Some will have more bad than good. But one thing that really bothers me is how some people, when being open and honest about where they are in their journey, attract those who seem to think it …

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Keeping it Real

This is Mental Illness Awareness Week, and I decided that every day, on my personal Facebook page, I would write something about my experience with mental illness. I did my "hey this is what I am doing" post on Sunday night. I did "hey here are my meds" on Monday. Today (Tuesday), well today was …

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Body Image & Mental Illness

(This post is about MY experience/struggle with body image and depression/anxiety.) See this picture? I posted it last week on my Facebook page. I have a love hate relationship with this photo, because the thing I see first, is my back bulges from the racer back running bra I am wearing. At first, I didn't …

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And I Ran

Last weekend was Maritime Race Weekend, and my birthday (wooohooo!). I had signed up for this race (the Tartan Twosome: one race Friday night, one race Saturday morning) when I was jacked up on endorphins from another race. I figured, what would be an awesome way to welcome 47! It has one of the best …

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We’ve Got a New Drug

Well, the me of we doesn't. The V of we does. She is on a weaning off plan this week, with her new drug (Fetzima) to be started after that. She follows up with the doc in a month. This drug can be increased up to 120mg if need be. Fingers are crossed for this …

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