As I sit and type this, I worry. My daughter is not doing well. It’s been almost 2 weeks since she has started to have suicidal thoughts. She left her job because of it, before she saw a physician, because it was unbearable. We were not able to get her an appointment right away, and …
Post Covid, Vacation, and other Random Things
Well, let me tell you one thing. Covid wasn’t great. Sickest I’ve been in a while. My taste and smell are coming back, as well as my energy. I am currently on vacation, so it was great to have the time off to get better. By the time week one was done I was starting …
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COVID
I learned on Sunday that I was exposed to Covid-19. I tested Monday Morning, negative. So, I went about my day. My throat was kind of dry as the day went on, but didn’t think much about it, as I find the office air dry some days. I woke up early Tuesday and I was …
Roll the Dice
Each day I wake up and roll the dice. These aren’t your regular dice. These are special mental illness dice. Sometimes I roll a good day. These days I don’t doubt myself, and I am not exhausted from fighting my brain. Sometimes I roll a bad day, and I want to crawl back into bed. …
Running as a Mentor
This year, I applied to be a Team Myles Mentor (Blue Nose Marathon). After my amazing experience with the Team late last year as an Ambassador, and a nudge from one of the previous mentors, I decided to share my love of Team Myles and running with others. The Ambassadors apply and can run the …
Feels Like a Circle
Mental illness has seasons, well, mine does at least. It’s like a circle. I’m in the middle, watching the seasons go by. I can’t touch the outer ring because I am stuck in place. I can’t make the circle bigger, or break the ring. I just sit, and watch it. The seasons that are out …
Shedding Those Insecurities
It’s not easy. I am having a hard time letting go of the insecurities that keep holding me back. They’re like a warm blanket I am afraid to take off in the winter. Knowing I will be cold and vulnerable after the cover comes off. It’s making me feel restless, like I want to jump …
What I’m Leaving Behind
Well, here we are. 2022. I’ve decided there are things I am leaving behind in 2021, because they no longer serve me. I am keeping myself open to good things. Leaving behind my fear of not being good enough to receive the good things. I am owning my faults. Leaving behind the thought that I …
Not Feeling It
Usually I am a Christmas Junkie. I usually love decorating and watching allllll the cheesy Hallmark Movies. It’s my kiddo that has a hard time with this season. This year, it’s me. I’m having a hard time. This past week has been rough. Today I just want to crawl back into bed and let the …
And She Did It
It’s been a few weeks since my 10km race. It’s taken me that long to process this journey, one that I needed to go on to find my running mojo again. Running with Team Myles was an amazing experience. One I will never forget. I’ve made some new running friends, and I’ve even joined a …
Screaming Into the Void 