Waiting to Come Out On The Other Side

I am into week 2 of the booster (Abilify) for my anti-depressants. It's been a bit of ride, but not necessarily a bad one. The first week: I was restless and I couldn't sit still. I am still a bit restless, bit that is starting to subside. I also found it hard to get to …

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Amy, TeenThing and The Flies

WARNING:  This post is about flies and larvae.  If you are grossed out by either or both...RUN AWAY NOW!!!  I can't run away because it's my story, so apologies for what you are about to read. So, we've a hot and humid summer here on the East Coast of Canada.  This means windows, and sometimes …

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A Booster for My Brain

Today was my six week check in with my doc to see where my anxiety was at. We sat down and talked about how things were, and how the additional methods I have been using to keep my anxiety under control have not been working like they have in the past. My depression has gotten …

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Is It Getting Easier?

I can't say it's getting "easier". Getting out of bed isn't a struggle. I am starting to be more involved in the things I enjoy doing. I don't feel as hopeless. I am still having issues with my anxiety. I had to buy a pill organizer thingie so I could look at it and see …

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I Was Afraid

So let's just dive in. One of the things that I am afraid of, when I go on my medication, is that I am going to "lose myself". It's part of how my brain tries to trick me into thinking I don't need the medication. In the back of mind I KNOW it won't turn …

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If It Makes You Happy

Here we are. One month in. I had my check in today with my doctor. We had a good sit down, and even though the tides are slowly turning, there are still some issues. One being: my anxiety is being a jerkwad. I go back again in six weeks. We may have to supplement my …

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On My Way

Here we are: Week three on my meds, and now on vacation until after Canada Day Weekend. No more dizziness (YAY!), just some fatigue that will hopefully work itself out over the next little while. I am starting to become more present. There is less disassociation. I can see NOW that I really should have …

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My Brain, The Jerk

So, here we are. I am 5 days into my dosage upgrade. It's been dizzy and sleepy. I can say now that those side effects are slowly retreating, and I am finding it a little easier to get out of bed in the morning. I am still chewing the sides of my fingernails, although not …

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Mentally Ill Mother: Mentally Ill Daughter (Or: Stop Telling Me Your Tools Are Better Than Mine)

You would think that with all of the talk around mental health and the options for treatment, that people would be a little more understanding when it comes to folks choosing the best option for them. From what I have been reading lately, this is not the case. So, once again, I am telling the …

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Amy’s Anxiety and The Tub

(Oh how I wish this post was about ice cream.....) May 9, 2018: So, Here I am awake at 11:27pm. You’re like...uhhhhh, and? Well, I am usually in extreme super sleep right now, because sleep and I are tight.  We have a very good relationship.  Amy + Sleep = BFFs. But NOT TONIGHT. (Backstory:  We …

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