We’re Doing Okay

Things are going well. My daughter's meds seem to be working. She is slowly beginning to come back into the outside world, and I am very grateful. At the end of this week, we are off to sun and sand for a much needed vacation. After this vacation it will be a slow return to …

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What I Wish You Knew

In my darkest (and not so darkest) hours there are things I cannot say. It's not because I physically can't. It's because I am afraid to. If they are spoken out loud they become real. If they stay inside they are only my demons to deal with. So, when I can't say what I need …

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Brains of a Feather

We've had a rough couple of months. My Buggie was just not feeling herself, no matter what we tried. She was struggling a lot, and had a hard time getting out of bed. She physically hurt, and had no motivation (she loves to clean, for real, and she has not had the urge to clean …

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Life as a Depression Ninja

Depression Ninja? Yes. I've talked about how great of an actress I am. 99% of the time, you would never know that I suffer from a mental illness. I'm good at hiding it, and it can take it's toll. Not only on me, but on those around me. That 1% of the time when I …

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Rearranging My Room, The Head Cold, and Why is My Cat Being an Asshole?

I decided (on Boxing Day) that I needed to rearrange my room. It is only the second time I've done this since living in this apartment because my room is an L shaped room. It stresses me out to rearrange it. I really wanted to move my stuff from one end to the other, but …

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As I Lay Me Down To Sleep

One thing that my medication doesn't shake: my want to sleep, ALL THE TIME. My depression likes sleep. I love sleep. This depression sleep is a whole different beast. It doesn't like it when I want to get up and do anything productive, like work or running. This sleep can be intoxicating to my brain. …

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It’s Almost Winter

Yes, I know in a lot of places there is snow and it's cold (both here right now), but the calendar says: not yet. I both love and hate this time of year. I love the coziness of winter. The sweaters and blankets, the hot chocolate (and other toasty warm beverages), and the holidays. I …

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