As I sit and type this, I worry. My daughter is not doing well. It’s been almost 2 weeks since she has started to have suicidal thoughts. She left her job because of it, before she saw a physician, because it was unbearable. We were not able to get her an appointment right away, and …
Category: single mom
Good Days, Bad Days
Sometimes it's good hour, bad hour. Good minute, bad minute. I've been alternating my good days and bad days lately. I don't know if it's the early darkness or just the way things are right now. On my bad days I do what I can. If it means missing out on something I had plans …
I’m Still Here
I'm still medicated. I'm still fighting. Things have been hectic lately. Work has been absolutely overwhelming. Life is all over thr place. I was out yesterday to do some Christmas shopping. This is the earliest I have started it. I am feeling pretty good about having it started. It has made it easier on my …
Body Image & Mental Illness
(This post is about MY experience/struggle with body image and depression/anxiety.) See this picture? I posted it last week on my Facebook page. I have a love hate relationship with this photo, because the thing I see first, is my back bulges from the racer back running bra I am wearing. At first, I didn't …
Following My Path
After unpacking some of my shit, it was time to forge a new path. (I am not done unpacking all my shit. Far from it.) I need to start following my own path. For years I have been following someone else's path, or the path that I thought was expected of me. I am still …
Bluenose 15k
I received a fantastic pep talk close to the end of my 15km race on June 9th. It reminded me that even though I thought I had given up, that I could push through that last little bit and cross the finish line. Running is a coping skill for me. I can hash things out …
So Here’s The Thing
I still have bad days, even on my medication. They do help, good gravy do they help. They keep me from going down the rabbit hole full tilt. They don't "cure" my depression or my anxiety. They never will. This week was a circus show. Work went sideways. I am as hormonal as all get …
I’m Gonna Do It
This Tuesday, I start training for a 15km race. I am running the Scotibank Bluenose 15km route in June. It's been a staggered start in my running this year with illness and other issues. I will be glad to start a training plan. Glad, and extremely nervous. I know I can run this distance. I've …
A Chat With My Daughter
Today I recorded a podcast with my daughter. We talked about her mental illness and her journey. She did great, and I was happy she was so willing to share that with me and so many others. As a parent, you always worry that you are doing things right. As a parent with mental illness, …
We’re Doing Okay
Things are going well. My daughter's meds seem to be working. She is slowly beginning to come back into the outside world, and I am very grateful. At the end of this week, we are off to sun and sand for a much needed vacation. After this vacation it will be a slow return to …
Screaming Into the Void 