And I Ran

Last weekend was Maritime Race Weekend, and my birthday (wooohooo!). I had signed up for this race (the Tartan Twosome: one race Friday night, one race Saturday morning) when I was jacked up on endorphins from another race. I figured, what would be an awesome way to welcome 47! It has one of the best …

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My Body is Changing and I Need a Support Group

I'll be 47 in a few months. My body is starting to work against me now. No matter what I do, it's like I am moving through molasses. My days are already a battle with my brain. Now it's a battle with my body. I am still running. Still physically active. My body is in …

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Bluenose 15k

I received a fantastic pep talk close to the end of my 15km race on June 9th. It reminded me that even though I thought I had given up, that I could push through that last little bit and cross the finish line. Running is a coping skill for me. I can hash things out …

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So Here’s The Thing

I still have bad days, even on my medication. They do help, good gravy do they help. They keep me from going down the rabbit hole full tilt. They don't "cure" my depression or my anxiety. They never will. This week was a circus show. Work went sideways. I am as hormonal as all get …

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I’m Gonna Do It

This Tuesday, I start training for a 15km race. I am running the Scotibank Bluenose 15km route in June. It's been a staggered start in my running this year with illness and other issues. I will be glad to start a training plan. Glad, and extremely nervous. I know I can run this distance. I've …

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As I Lay Me Down To Sleep

One thing that my medication doesn't shake: my want to sleep, ALL THE TIME. My depression likes sleep. I love sleep. This depression sleep is a whole different beast. It doesn't like it when I want to get up and do anything productive, like work or running. This sleep can be intoxicating to my brain. …

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It’s Almost Winter

Yes, I know in a lot of places there is snow and it's cold (both here right now), but the calendar says: not yet. I both love and hate this time of year. I love the coziness of winter. The sweaters and blankets, the hot chocolate (and other toasty warm beverages), and the holidays. I …

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