Absent, to be Present

I’m on a bit of a social media break (which will be ironic, because I’ll be posting this on social media, lol) so I can be present and show up in my life. I’ve been absent for quite some time. Detached from things since COVID-19 reared it’s ugly head. Been living in fight or flight …

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Voices in My Head

Pandemic + Mental Illness = War. It’s an inner war and I haven’t been rallying the troops like I should be. The enemy has been winning small battles these past couple of weeks. It’s time to sit down and rewrite my battle plan. Morale is in the toilet, so I need to pump up the …

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Dialing Into My Brain

Today, I had planned to wake up early and get to the gym. There was a spin class I wanted to go to and then do a 30 minute strength training sesh. I must have turned my alarm off in my sleep. I slept in. Then my brain went into overdrive. It was a little …

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I’m Still Here

I'm still medicated. I'm still fighting. Things have been hectic lately. Work has been absolutely overwhelming. Life is all over thr place. I was out yesterday to do some Christmas shopping. This is the earliest I have started it. I am feeling pretty good about having it started. It has made it easier on my …

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Body Image & Mental Illness

(This post is about MY experience/struggle with body image and depression/anxiety.) See this picture? I posted it last week on my Facebook page. I have a love hate relationship with this photo, because the thing I see first, is my back bulges from the racer back running bra I am wearing. At first, I didn't …

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It Can’t Rain All the Time, or Can It?

I am pretty sure it's been raining for eleventy billion days. (At least that's what it feels like. There have been scattered days of sunshine, but it seems Spring has taken to hibernating.) I am a solar powered human. I need the sun to lift my spirits. Rainy, cold days are soul sucking demons. My …

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The Finger Saga Continues

In case you are wondering, the glue on nails I used to try and save the skin around my fingernails could have been successful, had they been a little bit shorter. I spend all day on a computer at work and typing was a little bit cumbersome with the "real short" (not really) nails that …

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Laugh, If You Can

Life can be a big jerk. Something our family is good at is finding the humour in adverse situations. This past week has been rough with a family member's surgery, but we've been able to have a laugh (Thanks Snapchat). Laughing has gotten me through some pretty rough times. Example: When I was first diagnosed …

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Forgiving Myself

Sometimes I have a big problem. I can't forgive myself. I have very high expectations, and when I don't achieve my desired results, I will beat myself up about it. This could last for 48 hours, it could last for years. It could be a personal situation, or a work situation. The way my brain …

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I’m a Fainter

Last weekend I fainted while sitting in a pedicure chair. An ambulance was called. My daughter was a rockstar (which is good, because I now know she can navigate a situation like that without freaking). I was checked out by the paramedics, and then went to see a doctor who ordered some bloodwork. I had …

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