I learned on Sunday that I was exposed to Covid-19. I tested Monday Morning, negative. So, I went about my day. My throat was kind of dry as the day went on, but didn’t think much about it, as I find the office air dry some days. I woke up early Tuesday and I was …
Category: overwhelmed
So Done
Full of fatigue. Lacking motivation. Fighting my depression. Navigating this pandemic. I’m so done. Done with feeling like I can’t do anything about how I’m feeling. I go in circles. A time where I’m feeling good and think I have everything under some semblance of control. I can handle a lot of things I cannot …
The Cold, The Covid Test, and My Anxiety
This week was a little stressful. I woke up on Monday morning with a chest cold and a cough. I took the online Covid assessment of my local health authority and was advised to get tested for Covid. I booked my test online and was lucky to get an appointment that morning, within 2 hours …
Absent, to be Present
I’m on a bit of a social media break (which will be ironic, because I’ll be posting this on social media, lol) so I can be present and show up in my life. I’ve been absent for quite some time. Detached from things since COVID-19 reared it’s ugly head. Been living in fight or flight …
Voices in My Head
Pandemic + Mental Illness = War. It’s an inner war and I haven’t been rallying the troops like I should be. The enemy has been winning small battles these past couple of weeks. It’s time to sit down and rewrite my battle plan. Morale is in the toilet, so I need to pump up the …
Dialing Into My Brain
Today, I had planned to wake up early and get to the gym. There was a spin class I wanted to go to and then do a 30 minute strength training sesh. I must have turned my alarm off in my sleep. I slept in. Then my brain went into overdrive. It was a little …
I’m Still Here
I'm still medicated. I'm still fighting. Things have been hectic lately. Work has been absolutely overwhelming. Life is all over thr place. I was out yesterday to do some Christmas shopping. This is the earliest I have started it. I am feeling pretty good about having it started. It has made it easier on my …
Body Image & Mental Illness
(This post is about MY experience/struggle with body image and depression/anxiety.) See this picture? I posted it last week on my Facebook page. I have a love hate relationship with this photo, because the thing I see first, is my back bulges from the racer back running bra I am wearing. At first, I didn't …
It Can’t Rain All the Time, or Can It?
I am pretty sure it's been raining for eleventy billion days. (At least that's what it feels like. There have been scattered days of sunshine, but it seems Spring has taken to hibernating.) I am a solar powered human. I need the sun to lift my spirits. Rainy, cold days are soul sucking demons. My …
The Finger Saga Continues
In case you are wondering, the glue on nails I used to try and save the skin around my fingernails could have been successful, had they been a little bit shorter. I spend all day on a computer at work and typing was a little bit cumbersome with the "real short" (not really) nails that …
Screaming Into the Void 