This is Mental Illness Awareness Week, and I decided that every day, on my personal Facebook page, I would write something about my experience with mental illness. I did my "hey this is what I am doing" post on Sunday night. I did "hey here are my meds" on Monday. Today (Tuesday), well today was …
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We’ve Got a New Drug
Well, the me of we doesn't. The V of we does. She is on a weaning off plan this week, with her new drug (Fetzima) to be started after that. She follows up with the doc in a month. This drug can be increased up to 120mg if need be. Fingers are crossed for this …
Unpacking My Shit: Plant Style
So one of the things that has come from the unpacking of the shit has been how uncomfortable my apartment has been feeling (you know, besides the messy depression mess that seems to never go away, bastard). I have plants in my temporary office space, and I realized just how much more comfortable it feels …
Unpacking My Shit
Here I am. It's been a while since I sat down and unpacked some of my boxes. Not talking the physical kind. I am talking about the mental kind. I have filled many boxes over the years with all of my unpleasant thoughts and situations. I've started to unpack these boxes lately, and it hasn't …
My Body is Changing and I Need a Support Group
I'll be 47 in a few months. My body is starting to work against me now. No matter what I do, it's like I am moving through molasses. My days are already a battle with my brain. Now it's a battle with my body. I am still running. Still physically active. My body is in …
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What I Wish You Knew
In my darkest (and not so darkest) hours there are things I cannot say. It's not because I physically can't. It's because I am afraid to. If they are spoken out loud they become real. If they stay inside they are only my demons to deal with. So, when I can't say what I need …
Life as a Depression Ninja
Depression Ninja? Yes. I've talked about how great of an actress I am. 99% of the time, you would never know that I suffer from a mental illness. I'm good at hiding it, and it can take it's toll. Not only on me, but on those around me. That 1% of the time when I …
Speaking in Public: Oh My Nerves
This year I have two speaking engagements. My first one is at the end of this month, at Podcamp Halifax (held at Dalhousie University) and the other in May at the Worth Living Mental Health Conference here in Halifax (at the Atlanica Hotel. I have spoken in public before, and was a bundle of anxiety. …
Awake at 2am
It's now 3:32am as I type this and I am wide awake. One cat is legit right beside me purring in my face. The other just went from the chair to underneath my bed. This will be gross if I don't go back to sleep. I am going to blame this on my bladder. If …
Chewing The Skin Around My Nails
Yes. I chew the skin around my fingernails. It's a stress/anxiety solution to "getting rid" of my feelings. I will chew them, sometimes, until they bleed. Especially when my anxiety levels are high. My new meds have helped with the daily chewing. I am starting to slow my roll. I am now wearing fake nails …
Screaming Into the Void 