What I Wish You Knew

In my darkest (and not so darkest) hours there are things I cannot say. It's not because I physically can't. It's because I am afraid to. If they are spoken out loud they become real. If they stay inside they are only my demons to deal with. So, when I can't say what I need …

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Life as a Depression Ninja

Depression Ninja? Yes. I've talked about how great of an actress I am. 99% of the time, you would never know that I suffer from a mental illness. I'm good at hiding it, and it can take it's toll. Not only on me, but on those around me. That 1% of the time when I …

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Speaking in Public: Oh My Nerves

This year I have two speaking engagements. My first one is at the end of this month, at Podcamp Halifax (held at Dalhousie University) and the other in May at the Worth Living Mental Health Conference here in Halifax (at the Atlanica Hotel. I have spoken in public before, and was a bundle of anxiety. …

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Awake at 2am

It's now 3:32am as I type this and I am wide awake. One cat is legit right beside me purring in my face. The other just went from the chair to underneath my bed. This will be gross if I don't go back to sleep. I am going to blame this on my bladder. If …

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Chewing The Skin Around My Nails

Yes. I chew the skin around my fingernails. It's a stress/anxiety solution to "getting rid" of my feelings. I will chew them, sometimes, until they bleed. Especially when my anxiety levels are high. My new meds have helped with the daily chewing. I am starting to slow my roll. I am now wearing fake nails …

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A New Beginning

Some changes are coming. This is one of them. Crazy Mama Runs is now Screaming Into The Void. Many things have changed over this past year. It was time for the blog to have a new name. The site will get a redesign, but it will still be the same old me. I will still …

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Amy, TeenThing and The Flies

WARNING:  This post is about flies and larvae.  If you are grossed out by either or both...RUN AWAY NOW!!!  I can't run away because it's my story, so apologies for what you are about to read. So, we've a hot and humid summer here on the East Coast of Canada.  This means windows, and sometimes …

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