So it’s been a journey, but we’ve hit a fork in the road. It was time to admit that my meds were not necessarily working like they used to. I’ve known this subconsciously for a while now. It just took some time for my conscious self to catch up. My endless need for more sleep, …
Category: medication
It’s Going…..
Not really sure how it's going, but it's going. It's been a roller coaster ride these past couple of months. I can report that my kiddo has found a psychologist that she is starting to work with, and that has taken a load off my shoulders. Her medication has been adjusted to a level that …
Not Feeling It
Usually I am a Christmas Junkie. I usually love decorating and watching allllll the cheesy Hallmark Movies. It’s my kiddo that has a hard time with this season. This year, it’s me. I’m having a hard time. This past week has been rough. Today I just want to crawl back into bed and let the …
I Never Thought It Would Be This Way
I never thought that my smile would hide the demons inside of me. That I would fight daily to keep myself from falling apart. That I could be so tired. That my body could hurt without injury. That my darkest days would be when I was raising a daughter. I remember when I finally told …
Struggling With Self Worth
This is a daily struggle for me. Part of my mental illness is a feeling of worthlessness. I doubt myself on an hourly basis. I never think I am good enough. On my good days I can gather up the gumption to kick that thought to the curb. But dammit it's hard. When I was …
I’m Still Tired, Dammit
It is finally sunny (and will be for more than a day) and I am still tired I am usually a solar powered human. The rain depleted me so very badly the last week. It's going to take me a while to power back up, even with the extra vitamin D I took last week. …
So Here’s The Thing
I still have bad days, even on my medication. They do help, good gravy do they help. They keep me from going down the rabbit hole full tilt. They don't "cure" my depression or my anxiety. They never will. This week was a circus show. Work went sideways. I am as hormonal as all get …
We’re Doing Okay
Things are going well. My daughter's meds seem to be working. She is slowly beginning to come back into the outside world, and I am very grateful. At the end of this week, we are off to sun and sand for a much needed vacation. After this vacation it will be a slow return to …
Brains of a Feather
We've had a rough couple of months. My Buggie was just not feeling herself, no matter what we tried. She was struggling a lot, and had a hard time getting out of bed. She physically hurt, and had no motivation (she loves to clean, for real, and she has not had the urge to clean …
I’m a Great Actress
If you were to meet me without knowing me from social media, you would probably see me as a pretty happy, and fun, person. I am. I am a happy person with depression. I can hide my mental illness extremely well. Most people have no idea that I may be having a bad day. It's …
Screaming Into the Void 