Accepting Shit

So, I recently took a little break from all of my social media for a couple of weeks so I could focus on some things that needed my attention. It was well worth it, and I think I will do it a little more often. While I was off, I started to evaluate my priorities, …

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Looking Back, and Moving Forward…Again

My first race I ran my first race (a 10k) 3 weeks before I was diagnosed with depression. I was numb. I ran out of pure spite. I had no idea I was on the road to a breakdown. I thought this was just a finish line. I never thought running would be the thing …

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I Thought I Was Doing Good

I have been eating better. I have been drinking more water. I am getting ready to start some consistent running and yoga on June 1st. What I didn’t really pay attention to during this time was my underlying fatigue. That not so good depression sleep. It’s the sleep that takes over. Sleeping in is every …

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Running, In The Time of COVID

Or.....not running? I have been struggling lately. I haven’t been running as much as I would like. Honestly, it’s been a while. I have some really bad anxiety when I go outside. If I do want to go for a run, it needs to be early in the morning so I am not around that …

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Is This The New Normal?

I guess I am getting used to this new normal. It’s still surreal, this world we are currently living in. I live for the sunny days. Even when I am having a bad day on a sunny day, it doesn’t seem so awful. Still thankful to be able to work from home. It keeps my …

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These Precious Illusions

It’s hard to keep smiling these days. I do my best to find something in each day that makes me happy, or gives me a smile. I am lucky to have my daughter living with me during this surreal time. We make each other laugh, and are there for each other when things are not …

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Voices in My Head

Pandemic + Mental Illness = War. It’s an inner war and I haven’t been rallying the troops like I should be. The enemy has been winning small battles these past couple of weeks. It’s time to sit down and rewrite my battle plan. Morale is in the toilet, so I need to pump up the …

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I Don’t Know

I don’t know a lot right now. I don’t know how long COVID-19 will keep it’s grip on the Earth. I don’t know how long I will be working from home (but I am thankful I have the opportunity to do so). I don’t know how I am getting through each day without breaking down. …

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I’m Scared to Death

Just back from Cuba. I am well rested and full of anxiety! On Monday, I am starting a new position. I will be the Manager of my group. To say I’m not scared would be a big fat lie. I’m scared to death. It’s not that I will be working with a whole new group …

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Because I Need to be Reminded: Why I Run

If I had seen someone running (summer or winter) around 11 years ago I would have told you those people were nuts. Who would do that to themselves? I was a self proclaimed couch potato, and a single mom, working a stressful job. I hd been to the gym off and on, but it never …

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