Imposter Syndrome. It’s riding my ass hard today. I’m also restless and annoyed. These days are hard, because the inner conflict takes over and all I want to do is stay in bed and eat crap. Thankfully I had things to do that made me get out of bed: a Microsoft Teams meeting, laundry, and …
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I Just Don’t Know Anymore
I have had to stop asking myself “What will today bring?” The past few months have had it’s bad, and it’s good. The world is still in a pandemic and my neighbours to the South are imploding. I am glad the big orange cheeto is on his way out the door, but holy moly guys. …
These Precious Illusions
It’s hard to keep smiling these days. I do my best to find something in each day that makes me happy, or gives me a smile. I am lucky to have my daughter living with me during this surreal time. We make each other laugh, and are there for each other when things are not …
I’m Scared to Death
Just back from Cuba. I am well rested and full of anxiety! On Monday, I am starting a new position. I will be the Manager of my group. To say I’m not scared would be a big fat lie. I’m scared to death. It’s not that I will be working with a whole new group …
Races, Brain Melts, and the Return of the FitBit
Okay, So over the holidays I decided that I seriously needed to keep moving this year. Not just for my physical health, but for my mental health. I sat and muddled about a fall half marathon. I wanted something close to home (because I am without my own vehicle, and would need to acquire …
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Looking Back….Looking Ahead
So here we are. 2016 is slowly coming to a close. 2017 is on the doorstep, patiently waiting. I decided a year or so ago that I would not do resolutions. It's just not me. It sets me up to self sabotage my well thought out plans. This month has been hard mentally. Deciding what …
When Anxiety Comes Knocking….
You Put On Your Best FaceOkay, maybe not THIS face, lol.Because we, the mentally ill, it's what we do. Until we can't.Last week was bad for me.My anxiety was bad. It started on Monday.I woke up with it, like the bottom fell out of my stomach. There was no reason for it. It's just how …
Calf Strain, Compression Sleeves, and Recovery
The Chronicles of Half Marathon Training: Calf Strain, Compression Sleeves and RecoveryThinking Face: OnI've been all over the place lately.Physio, work, small runs and workouts.My motivation waxes and wanes, even though I have a half marathon coming up.I think a lot during my physio appointments. Even when she is dry needling my calf, lol. It …
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As I Sit Here and Write This…
It is almost EXACTLY one week until my presentation at BlogJam 2015.I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous.October will hold two firsts for me. The first being: I am stepping out my box, big time, doing this presentation.If I look like this, just hug me....lol.It is so very easy to sit here …
Screaming Into the Void 