It’s riding my ass hard today. I’m also restless and annoyed.
These days are hard, because the inner conflict takes over and all I want to do is stay in bed and eat crap.
Thankfully I had things to do that made me get out of bed: a Microsoft Teams meeting, laundry, and the need to eat, lol.
I am so frustrated with feeling like this. I want to crawl out of my own skin. I want to cry but I can’t.
Deep inside I know that what I am telling myself is a bunch of bullshit, but my brain is taking it all in, like some bad documentary that I can’t turn off.
Knowing that this will pass helps a little bit, but in the moment, I just want to scream. To shake it out of me.
Not being able to come out of this funk, this instability, is really making today hard.
So, today can suck it.
Tomorrow I may be out of this tornado, or I may not.
For now, I’ll just get through today.
Frig off brain.