Sometimes my depression veers off course.
It surprises me by taking its foot off the gas.
I start feeling not so tired, not so hopeless.
Now is one of those times. I am not in bed so early. I can stay up and get things done. Although getting out of bed is still hard, I am taking my evening “awake time” as a positive step forward to a little bit of normal.
I don’t know how long this will last, and it could only be for a short while. Part of me wants to do ALL THE THINGS before this goes away. I know that is setting an unreasonable expectation, so I pump my breaks and cool down.
It’s time for me to just appreciate this extra time in my evening and enjoy it.
I always worry when I get extra time in my day. It makes me anxious that it will be extremely short lived.
For now, I am taking it day by day. Giving myself permission to do what I wish with my extra time.
No sense giving myself extreme anxiety over how long it may last.
Instead, I will overthink the crap out of something I did or didn’t do, because that’s how my brain works.
One step forward 😉