I don’t know a lot right now.
I don’t know how long COVID-19 will keep it’s grip on the Earth.
I don’t know how long I will be working from home (but I am thankful I have the opportunity to do so).
I don’t know how I am getting through each day without breaking down.
It’s a different world. I don’t know how to fully navigate in it.
I try and get outside every day. Sometimes it’s hard, because everyone seems to be out at the same time, and you have to keep 6ft apart.
This morning I screamed into my pillow and then did 10 push-ups. I needed both. It helped.
It’s like we woke up one morning engulfed in a Stephen King novel. Killer virus takes over the planet. It’s all so surreal.
I am thankful my daughter still lives with me. We keep each other going. We take walks together.
It’s a day by day battle. One I plan on winning until I do have my breakdown. I know it will happen, no matter how much I walk, how much I run, or how much I scream, the dam will burst. I actually need it. It’s funny how cleansing the dam burst is. I need to start over. I need to be able to reset.
So until the dam bursts, I’ll keep pushing forward.
Stay Home. Stay Safe. Wash Your Hands.