I’m Still Tired, Dammit

It is finally sunny (and will be for more than a day) and I am still tired

I am usually a solar powered human.

The rain depleted me so very badly the last week.

It’s going to take me a while to power back up, even with the extra vitamin D I took last week.

Also, still being injured and not being able to run at all this weekend is a major bummer. I was able to do active recovery, but it just isn’t the same.

I am moving around a lot more today, but a lot of it is nervous energy. My brain is firing on all cylinders.

I feel like I am housing a tornado.

I always question why I am so tired, and have to remind myself that my constant battle with my illness and the meds will make me tired. Some days are harder than others.

I sometimes forget the physical aspect of my mental illness. It can be easy when you are in an okay spot. You forget how much it can hurt, can drag you down, can exhaust you.

Pushing back can be tiring. On the harder days it can be downright defeating.

But I get up, dust myself off and try again the next day.

For now, I’ll forgive myself for being so tired, and remember that it won’t always be this exhausting.

There is some good in my life right now, and that’s what I am focusing on.

Tomorrow is a brand new day.

Today is temporary. One moment of many.

For now, the sun is shining 🙂

2 thoughts on “I’m Still Tired, Dammit

  1. Melanie

    You know I feel you!! Was SO excited when I woke up and saw the sun. It motivated me – then my body reminded me that I just started my period (sorry for TMI) and it’s particularly bad this month so I’m literally having to take 30 minute breaks between every small task I’m trying to accomplish. But yes, at least the sun is shinning!! 🥰

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