So if you follow me on Twitter or Instagram, you know that I announced that my half marathon on May 21st will be my last half marathon.
I struggled with this decision through training. Even though I started out strong, every bump in the road seemed like a mountain. Running started to become a burden. The thing I love was becoming something I did not look forward to.
It had nothing to do with my support team and my friends. They were the ones who helped me get my butt out the door. I could not have made it this far in my training without them!
I place a very high expectation on myself. When things don’t go as I think they SHOULD have, I can fall into a big black hole of self doubt that is not exactly fun.
The remainder of my race season is made up of shorter distance races.
I am in need of a reset.
During some of my solo training runs I went off the beaten path. I found that it was in those moments that I felt more at peace. I enjoyed myself.
I do believe that the trails are calling. More time in Mother Nature is required. I need it. My soul needs it. I need to find the joy in running again.
2018 will be about running for just for me. No concerns about pace, time, or serious training. I am going to run for fun. Find my love of lacing up early in the morning and being outside before the chaos of the day begins.
So, next weekend I hope to crush this last half marathon and enjoy the remainder of the year which will be filled with a few fun things including: TeenThing’s Prom, Graduation, and Graduation Trip (Hello SCOTLAND!).
Looking forward to finding the joy.
p.s. We will be vlogging Scotland. So excited!!