So for those of you who have been keeping up with me on social media know, I have been plagued with cranky calves. If you aren’t following me on social media: I am plagued with crank calves, lol.
Ever since my knee surgery in 2015, I have been pushing with my calves to run. I am pretty sure this is because I was afraid that I would break off more dead pieces of femur, would be back in the same spot, and require more surgery.
I have been at physio getting myself looked after (yay dry needling!) and working on strength training to get my quads, hammies and glutes to activate. I am also working on my balance and core work.
My last long run was good. Things are activating. My butt and upper legs are SORE (not the bad sore, but the “heyyyyy, we are working here” kind of sore that I haven’t felt in a while) and I was happy with what I could pull off after not really pounding out the kms the week prior.
My problem now: I am overthinking how I am running.
I ran 4kms in the evening after my lunchtime physio and all I could do was think “Are my glutes activating?” “My calves are sore, but I had dry needling, so is it that or did I screw them up again?” “Keep using the upper legs.” “You probably look weird” “You should be in the Fitness Centre doing leg work” “WHY CAN’T I JUST RUN LIKE I USED TO!?”.
Needless to say, I got the run done, but it was noisy.
Sometimes I wish I had a switch to turn off my brain.
My goal is to do the remaining runs this week and not think about it. Try to enjoy the run, and remember why I love it: the endorphins, the sweat, the joy.
It’s a big request for my brain. Hoping it can step up to the challenge.