Total October Randomness

Here we go!

 This is what I am doing right now….running while I can!

I see the surgeon in 20 days.  So as long as it is not torrential downpour or hurricane force winds, I am going to try and get as much running time in as is humanly possible.

I’m not going gangbusters mind you, but with the thought of being laid up for possibly 6-8 weeks and then recovery…well I am going to get it all in.

Same with my yoga.  Home and at the studio.  I will practice every day!

I want to be in great condition so I can kickass in recovery.

The better shape I am in, the quicker my recovery time.

And now…..other ramblings….

So, as some of you know, I am a single mom.  This is both challenging and rewarding.  Challenging when the other parent is not involved, but rewarding because I see the awesome human I am raising on my own.  

There have been times when I have doubted the job I am doing, just like every other parent.  Parenting is hard, period.  Even with both parents.  There are times you doubt every decision you make. 

As parents, we are always hard on ourselves.  Harder than anyone else would be on US.  We keep our doubts and inner criticisms to ourselves.  No parent is perfect, no matter people may think or say.  We’ve all made mistakes and we learn from that.  We need to help each other out.  Give each other some pats on the back.  This is one hard gig!

And then more randomness today because sometimes….

I get the schlumpies.

That’s what I call my bad days with depression.  The days I want to hibernate.  

I find it gets worse when I don’t see the sun for more than 2 days.  

No matter how much I run, how much I yoga, sometimes they just come along and pull the rug out from beneath me.

Rude, yes.  I just find ways to get through them.  Whether it’s medidation, chocolate or some downtime with Netflix, I make it.  If it is really bad, I reach out, because sometimes the schlumpies leak out my eyes.

In the end…

I am still here.  Grateful for everything I have.  Grateful for everyone in my life.  Grateful for those who didn’t hang around.  I try to learn from every experience, good or bad.  There is a lesson in everything if you step back and look.

Am I stubborn? Yes.  Will I make decisions that suck?  Yes.  But I get up the next day and start over.  Every day is a new beginning.  Yesterday is gone.  Put your feet on the ground and start over.

It’s the best part, starting over.

I’ve done it a lot.  You can too 🙂

Sending out high fives and hugs!  We are all doing the best we can to get through this life.